Sometimes I look at pictures of my happy, healthy, care free little boy before diagnosis and it makes me sad. Sad that he lost that innocence, sad that he has a huge weight on his shoulder, sad that he he's different than kids his age, sad he has to stop and think about insulin and blood sugar before playing, sad that he has developed anxiety from all this. I always try to look at the silver linings, but man.... Sometimes diabetes just fucking sucks.